Back on Track

It has been six months. Normally, I would say that it has been too long. That I miss blogging and I am moving forward with my list. But six months flew by and I did not miss anything at all.

I was busy with something else... actually, I was busy with SOMEONE.

Where was I? 
I was around. I just didn't update this blog.

What about my lose weight/run a marathon goal?
I can now say that I am ready to lose weight again. The reason why I stopped running / training is because a few days after this post, I found out I was pregnant. This is the main reason why I had to tweak my list in the first place.

What about my other goals?
Honestly, I didn't have time to do any of the things I listed down. I was busy being pregnant. I gained a lot of weight and then I had to go on a diet because my blood sugar was out of whack. There were cravings and mood swings. On top of that, I still had to work and deal with "certain" people.

Why start now? Isn't it too early?
Well, I'll be turning 35 soon and it would be a shame if I didn't finish at least half of my list. I gave birth almost a month ago and right now I'm losing those kg's like crazy. I'm not even doing any exercises since I had a c-section delivery. I blame it on the sleepless nights.

All I have to do right now is stay focused and when I've lost most of the weight, I'll be able to start running again (with my doctor's blessings of course).

Will I be able to finish my 35 list?
I really don't know. I'm taking it one day at a time. I realized that the true reason why I created this list was because I felt that my life is not going anywhere. That I have no clear path, no direction. I needed a list to keep me focused.

But now, I have a reason for living. I have a little one that depends on me.  A  life that I am responsible for.
My number one goal right now is to get this right. That I don't screw up on being a mom.

Change

I know it looks like I've abandoned this blog by not posting for more than a month. I haven't. I still intend to do my list  ... but maybe a little different from what I originally wrote.

You see, things took quite a turn and I am being steered to a different direction. It's not bad actually, just "unplanned". Not updating here really makes me feel bad and guilty but I have a good reason for it. Something that I'm not yet ready to announce. I will eventually but for now, let me make some changes and hopefully I would be able to actually achieve my goals.

My 35 Things

1. Skydiving -- so near, yet so far. I might not be able to do this in the next few years. Maybe in my 40 before 40 list?
2. Bungee jumping -- not in the near future.
3. Scuba Dive in Palau -- I checked with my bestfriend and she's actually in the Philippines right now, not in Palau. So, I will have to move this when she goes back.
4. Conquer Mt. Pulag -- As much as I want to to do this when I go home in August, I physically won't be able to.
5. Pyramids, Pharaohs and Luxor aka Visit Egypt -- Well, considering the situation in the Middle East right now, I don't think traveling there would be a good idea.
6. Go to France -- I think I'll skip the traveling altogether.
7. Visit 3 Continents
8. Achieve my ideal weight -- I still intend to do this but I won't be concentrating on the losing weight part for now.
9. Run a marathon -- Will try to do this before 35.
10. Have an emergency fund. -- in progress.
11. Learn Pole Dancing -- I do want to learn but there's no way I'd be able to find a pole dancing school in Dubai. I feel so stupid for putting this in the first place. doh!
12. Learn Another Language -- in progress. I decided on French.
13. Wakeboarding -- maybe early next year.
14. Learn to play an instrument -- according to my brother, a guitar is waiting for me at home. YAY!!
15. Have a portrait of myself. -- Ahhh, I will do this definitely.
16. Try a proper Moroccan Bath -- planned.
17. Attend a concert -- still looking for a concert that I'm interested in.
18. Visit places mentioned in the Da Vinci Code -- someday.
19. See the Stonehenge -- someday.
20. Try Indoor Skiing -- maybe early next year.
21. Take the day off on my birthday. -- will happen on 2012!
22. Movie Marathon: Lord of the Rings
23. Donate Blood -- soon
24. Get a Tattoo -- undecided ... I want to but something is stopping me. You'll know soon.
25. Have a family reunion (parents & siblings) -- definitely happening!
26. Watch 1o Best Movies Ever Made -- only 4 movies left.
27. Defeat King Koopa!! -- I honestly stopped playing. I'm stuck at level 8 with hundred lives!
28. Hot Air Balloon Ride -- I'll have to arrange for this soon before summer hits big time.
29. Earn Extra $$ -- hope to continue having extra income streams.
30. Make our family tree -- finally done!
31. Try Ice Skating -- maybe early next year.
32. Have an "Indoor" [Herb] Garden -- happening soon. Maybe start with a tomato.
33. Do Volunteer Work -- still looking for a cause to join.
34. Wear a wig and false lashes -- I got myself falsies and failed at putting them on ... twice! I still need to buy a proper wig.
35. COMING SOON  =)

As you can see, traveling and serious activities might be put on hold. It's because of my current condition. I will be having regular check ups and my blood sugar and pressure will have to be monitored. I just want to be healthy so I can live life to the fullest!

Because a lot of stuff might not happen, I'll post a revised list soon. Promise.

I'm doing it!

I've lists of things I want to do, a lot!
I did some things that were not even on my list but they should have.
I did things that were not on the list and thank God they weren't!

But most of the things in my list remains uncrossed.
Because life happened.
Because I somehow forgot who I am and who I wanted to be.
Because I badly wanted to fit in someone else's life.

A couple of days ago, I stumbled upon The 30 Before 30 Project blog. I haven't really finished reading the whole thing but just reading Celine's backstory, I found myself nodding and agreeing to every word she said. This inspired me to do my own list. again.

Join me. Encourage me. I need it!